Everything.. Poem by Astra Derksen

I had to fall to lose it all,
I put my trust in you,
I pushed so hard,
You're not understanding it! !
I try, I try my best,
I had to fall to lose it all,
Time is a valueble thing,
Even though I tried,
It all still fell apart.
In the end, It doesn't even matter,
I'm falling again,
Don't you see? ?
Ypur hurting me over and over,
I search for an anwser
I just want to be myself...again...
I'm falling,
And you're not there to catch me...
You never were there for me...
I try so hard,
Now I just want to fly, fly far away,
Some days I cry alone, I know I'm not alone,
I don't wanna die alone,
Please don't cry, please?
I know what I've done,
Run, Baby, Run, thats all you tell me,
You see I'm breaking inside,
I think about why...
You know there's no coming back, if your carring in the past,
I don't wanna fall and say I lost it all,
And I feel like I'm breaking inside,
But I lost you anyway...
Coulda tried a little bit harder,
But I want my life back,
You were the best I ever had,
But I'm without you, once again,
You love me, then you hate me,
Can't you just pick one?
I hate going threw this over and over,
I LOVE YOU!
But your too blind to see that! !
I can't take it anymore!
Just leave me here,
Just go, Don't come back,
You're at just leaveing me,
But you always come back,
This time I don't want you to come back,
Not even to say your sorry! !
I just know you will do it all again,
It's just a matter of time,
I guess this is a good-bye for now...