Ever-Loving Thread Poem by Brian Arguello

Tense is my breath because we know
That when this stops
When the echoed voice ceases
The laugh, the fear, the banter, all burdened by silence
Drop
You will fall
As they all fall
As they all fell
Will fall
A cut to the out calls leaving us dumb
Mouths sown like dolls
Stiff and static
Stiff and sullen, with sown on frowns

But if I dare knit a mere slanted lip
If I dare rip open what silence condones
I'd spare the ever-loving thread
And share with you words unsaid

Please do not forget to wave
Pardon the favor to help stave off the lasting pass
Gone by far too fast
Perhaps reach beside you
Or take my breath inside you
For the first time
As the last time
Leave me no more to write
And rob me of my rhyme
And leave my hand cramped
Take from me that speck of star's dust
Bust it from my chest
A theft I do bless

Perhaps reach beside you
Or take my breath inside you
Rob me of my words
I fear to now abjure
Else they lay in my stomach
And curdle
And fester
Or tighten it like a girdle
Or hold me tight like a girdle

The steps that make my struts, my posture, they grow sullen
The days lengthen dull in the new spring
The new spring feels old
As this fantasy bought and sold
To my fancy
No rebirth of joyed mirth

This and all the more were better told and not read
If I dare rip open what silence condones
I'd spare the ever-loving thread
And share with you words unsaid

All the touching desires transpired
When my body grew tired and took to sleep
Too deep to feel or think
Deep enough to drink your beauty with both my hands and eyes
Both on your thighs
I rise
O' how I rise to a gasp and a curse hurled at the sun
I try to hold on to that texture
So sweet a scent turned somber
Though heaven sent
Sent from my dreams
And I repent
I repent when that light touches me
It is you as it would seem
But only a dream

Things better told than read
To spare the thread
Sharing words unsaid