Epiphany Poem by Vinaya Joseph

What does the word epiphany mean?
I am familiarizing myself with this word.
It is still like a stranger.
Clouds of uncertainty hovers over my head,
It remains perilously unclear,
Astonishingly uncomfortable,
I am trying to capture my thoughts,
Now, after 39 years of existence
I have forgotten my priorities,
I am a chronicler of the times that I live,
Some days holding on a mirror to myself.
The biggest perk of working in a newspaper as an editorial staff,
Is that I am bombarded with words,
Some days I become immune to what I read,


There is palpable change in the way I think,
The way I feel towards myself,
The way I have begun to react with things around me,
Unleashing a wave of revulsion in me towards myself,
This thought scares me,
As I always felt that I am emotionally secure,
I fear to think otherwise,
It will not be easy to undo certain things,
Unlearn certain things that are so deeply ingrained in my mind,
Events that happened years ago still haunt me.
Hope I get a closure