Empty... Motherless Poem by Tracy Craighead

I keep diving into an empty pool expecting water.
Waiting until I am parched and in need of relief,
I jump with total faith, only to be crushed again…

And again.

The fantasy never lives up to reality.
Wanting desperately for
something to be,
Will never make it so….
Expecting something from a mother,
A quality she doesn't possess
Coming up empty again,

And again.

So this is it, the cards are dealt
I've shown my hand and I am at a loss.
I'm blinded by the way things are,
Letting go of wishes of what I want it to be,
And finally, settling for what it is,
Again reality crushes the dream.
She never knew me and can never know
My hopes and my destiny.... and when
I feel so very low, I plunge again,

And again…

Into the deep…

Empty….