Emily Poem by Andrus Cassian

Why did I bother
How could I falter
I thought I was ready
I thought I was able
but I lied to me
I lied to all of you
How could I really believe
she would be everything to me
And how could she
up and leave me
after everything she told me
Well, there's not much to do
not much to say
I don't know how it all fell apart
so fast, too short, so long
Goodbye, good riddance my nuisance
Forgiveness, forgive me
Let me explain
Acadia, Acadia is a fake
Acadia, her real name is Emily
and I told a lie
I thought I should have told her I loved her
now I realize
I should have never met her
She's liar with soft eyes
a liar with a honeyed tongue
a liar, a liar
She whispered nothing but sweet things to me
She needed and asked me to be her comfort
She always came to me in her time of need
when her castle walls came crumbling down
when her tears filled her stormy eyes
from all those harsh nights
and all from harsh fights alike
I was there
I was there
And I thought I had it...under control
And I thought everything was finally..right
or just enough to make that feeling...just
I thought everything she told me...'I love you'
I thought everything she said...was true
and even when I found out the truth
I built her a house on the hill of innocence
cause I had to deny
deny with full satisfaction
that she didn't say 'I love you' one day
and disappeared for a cursed 3 more
Again that cursed 3
please tell me why do you hate me....
Emily...
oh Emily...
Dear Emily...
Would it have brought you back in April
if I would've said it to your face...
'I love you'...
Do I really want to know...
Goodbye, good riddance my nuisance
Goodbye, so fast, so long
Emily...