Don'T Want To Lose U Poem by Ana xxx

I count all the seconds the minutes, all the hours...
a couple days had faded away..
I'm so wrapped up in thinking..
all time about you..
when I asked for help..
you were the first to come and take me from my hand..
you were here..
I still feel your presence..
so cold..so soft..so pure
you were carrying your heavy burden upon you shoulders..
all the long way you crept on ground..
your burden became heavier..older
your scars got deeper and deeper..
I hated your September..
I hated my December..
now you are stuck in your own hell
all my thoughts..all my days just tell..
I should go and break that spell..

my thoughts shined in my room
like red roses got to bloom
I ran to my wallet and count all what I got left
so little was kept..
I wanted to get to you..
I wanted to warm you
my blood still wants that..

I only saw my self flying in the space..
I couldn't handle all the pain I gained..
the distance gathered all your sadness and makes it flow all the way..
all the way it was growing madly..
I still feel your pain..and your daughter there..
I wanted to hold her..
to give her all the affection and love she didn't get from her mother..
she rejects her and ran away..

I imagine you got so angry at me..
your pain your anger I can feel..
I suffer..i got tired.. I cried out my eyes to sleep..
for you only I'll weep..
my tears never shown at my cheek..
in my eyes in my blood I use to keep..
I never thought I have got so attached to you..
invisible wires pierced my skin so roughly
and drag me to you..
I'm stuck in the road..
I'm involved..
I just want to get you..

(written for embrose t)