Do You Know What I See? Poem by Sumiya Khan

I gaze in to the cracked mirror; do you know what I see?
I see a lonely girl, with eyes brown and sad, staring back at me
I see a cold face, cheeks cherry red, eye with tears making them glassy
And yet I still long for people to think of her as classy
Its strange staring at this girl, she still stands as her tears fly
Why is it the more I see them, I want her to die

I look down below me; do you know what I see?
I see my skin growl together, knowing its taunting me
It only comes, for me, and for me to see
What's the need of that, people need to see this rough palm tree
I bring my body together, as I clutch my arm
I watch the redness spread rapidly, knowing how much I can harm

I close my eyes together; do you know what I see?
I see the world turning upside down, but only on me
A heart seeking a path through the field of sadness
The cloudiness of my eyes stand above me, what is this madness
Painful light beams from the deepness within my dreary nights
I listen to my unaligned heartbeat, this hurt moves closer and it lights

I look at a picture; do you know what do I see?
I see a happy girl reflect upon me, smiling at me
Her eyes draw me closer as she unleashes the feelings I hold
Her lips move, I'll feel like this forever im told
But the tears keep rolling down
That happy girl is full of pain, as I look into her eyes, sad and brown

I drown into my scratched heart; do you know what I see?
I see a girl swimming in an ocean of ache, calling me
This girl tells me, the happiness of my heart is broken and shattered
Tender tears fall, but that's never mattered
Something formed of sorrow and anguish pull onto me like a chain
That form of me swims back inside me, she moves through my veins

I look out the window; do you know what I see?
The darkness of the sea rising up, heading towards me
The dusky clouds making reflections of my heart so sad
They form irregular letters telling me I'm mad
The sea, wind and clouds fighting me like its war
The universe turning upside down, I hear it roar

I look back into the mirror: do you know what do I see?
I see a mental girl starring back at me
With tear stained cheeks, and cold bloodshot eyes
She glares at me with horror, telling me to die
I step back, will this glare decide my fate
I stumble to the floor, hoping it's not to late

I hit the ground hard; do you know what I see?
Dark clouds approaching me, pausing above me
I look up, at the top of the hole there they are
The girls with the bloodshot eyes and hearts full of scars
They constantly look at me, watching me cry
Each and everyone whisper my own hearts question ‘I'
Will this agony of heartache ever die, and fly into the sky.