Dear Girls Poem by Tessa Hanson

Dear Girls, I hope one day you all know how much you each have helped me grow, without you girls I would never know, who I was or where I wanted to go.
Savannah when I first looked into your eyes, in my stomach I felt butterflies. Finally I had someone to call my own, finally I would never be alone. Someone to hold me when no one else would and someone who would love me whether I was bad or good. Someone who would always be on my side, someone who would always be along for the ride. Someone to make up for all that I lack, someone to share the weight I carry on my back. And in the end, all I could do was pretend that I knew how and what I was supposed to be, as it turns out everything I thought I knew about was everything I couldn’t see, I realized that nothing worth having comes free, and I apologize for making you raise me.
Karina, there is no excuse or no story to tell, I brought you into this world and I put you through hell. I was too concerned with the fact that I could not deal with anything in life that was close to being real. I lost touch with myself so I lost touch with everyone else. I didn’t care whether I lived or died so in turn I disregarded the life I was growing inside. There is no excuse there is only the truth, that I have learned to embrace my shame and finally I realized motherhood is not a game. I can’t take back what I did then I can only promise to never do it again.
So my dearest Angelina, my angel number three, before I could love you I had to learn to love me. I give you my word that I will do my best, to not make you clean up my mess. I know that I can sleep good at night, knowing that I am doing what’s right by buying a flashing red light and riding you to the babysitters on a bike. Through all the troubles and all the pain I am proud to be the mother that I finally became.