Dear Future Love, Poem by Justin Reinalda

I thought I'd take a moment and write a letter your way
So much time has passed it blurs day into day
I'm sorry I've given myself to people who are fake
And that you had to watch them take all they could take
I'm sorry I'm broken because you truly deserve better
You see that's just the purpose of this very letter
I know the Truth, I talk to Him every day
But I'm still lost, I can't seem to find my way
When I care about something I get really intense
I just can't seem to get myself off of this fence
It's not just all of the loss, it's fear of rejection
I choose to stay lonely for my protection
You deserve strength and presence of mind
And I'm just not there, mine's left behind
I'd rather have nothing than head the wrong way
But I'd be lying if I didn't come out and say
A future for me is something I just do not see
But I'm still hoping that one day you'll find me