Dark Desires Poem by Jennifer Parks

I am enshrouded, yet again, in darkness
my soul in bleak despair
my thoughts, my wishes, my feelings,
I can no longer escape.
I am drowning in a sea of emotions
losing more of myself each passing day
all hopes, all dreams for a future, lost
I feel trapped- like an animal, caged
I have no energy left to be angry
All I can do is cry
my fears have all come before me
however, there is no courage to be had
deadly thoughts and wishes
I try my best not to embrace
my mind slips farther toward insanity
I am slowly going mad
my depression overwhelms me
and a desperate sense of isolation
I feel, once again, that I am alone
there is no one that I can turn to
all I crave is the total darkness
to find, one more time, my sweet abyss
I have no dreams for the future
I wish my life were through
too many conflicting feelings inside of me
too many things going unsaid
too many dreams lost forever
too much self loathing and hatred
there is no more sunshine
there is only darkness here for me now
my life is only pain and misery
Oh, God, if I were dead!