Cut Deep Poem by Goddy Nana Mens

All my life I've been searching for love
For acceptance
That sense of belongingness to somebody
The refreshing conviction that somebody was thinking about me
Missing me
That someplace somewhere someone was wishing we hadn't parted
At last, my hard work had paid off
And I was finally rewarded
And the prize had been great
Very much worth the decade of diligent search
She had been everything I had wished for
Beautiful, funny, witty, good listener, innocent
A little too innocent maybe
She was my first real friend
And I knew I could trust her
For there was no doubting her loyalty
It was all there in her dark brown eyes
How they came alive at my sight
How they shone with joy in my presence
How they twinkled when they bore into mine
How they dulled and blurred when we said farewells
For once in my long weary life I'd found peace
I'd found true happiness
I had found love and acceptance
And I always had a positive thought alive - that somebody was thinking about me
But this joy was not to be
This peace had only been a lull in my stormy life
For my friend was taken away from me
Life dealt me another of Her unfair blows
And now my friend is gone
Gone forever
Fallen over the edge
My world is empty again
Even emptier than before
For now, a void within the emptiness screams to be filled
My heart is in mourn
And my spirit loses light with every passing moment
Words cannot describe how much I miss her
How I'd do anything to look into her eyes again
Those which were always boring into mine
Searching deep and finding my words even before I spoke them
Those priceless gems that adorned her face
Oh how I miss the mere sight of them!
Now the days are longer
The nights even longer still
Because my head is filled memories gone stale
And sleep like everyone else refuses to take me in Her arms
The past seems so bright from here
`For the future like present is dark and gloomy
And grows darker by the day
My pain can drain all of Earth's ink
My sorrow can cloud all the sky's twinkling stars
My tears can flood the Pacific
And my cries can muffle thundering typhoons and sweeping sandstorms
Once again, I've been stabbed deep
Real deep
And yet another hole gapes in my scarred heart
This time I may never heal
I may never salve this bleeding wound
(Perhaps I don't even want to. I've had enough) .
I may never love or be loved again
But I feel distantly fulfilled
I have assurance of my thoughts
Now I know a Great Truth
That "Nothing - absolutely nothing -
Is as refreshing as true love flowing free.