Crying Secretly Poem by Louise Tredoux

When Rudi
goes away,
the sun pulls its light away,
the mantle of my chores
envelopes me within sad
and dreary thoughts, the
blue sky becomes empty,
the sparkle leaves the sea,
the beach stops shimmering,
growing insipidly grey and dirty,
birdsong loses its meaning,
the stars start to fade, the
moon turns into withered
cheese, the sun becomes
a faded, dying ember of
its former glorious
self

I’m so depressed
with Rudi gone again
on another quest, a boat
trip – my life is just a test,
a race of endurance to see
how much pain I can quietly
bear, why did another Great
White attract their attention,
it is so unfair, just when life
becomes so safe and beautiful,
Rudi leaves - I must remain
calm and dutiful, yet
my heart is cleft – and
I never tell Rudi he’s got
to stay with me, I know
his spirit must be free,
his life is bigger than me,
I sigh in silence,
crying secretly…