Crowded Room Poem by chad fisher

In a crowded room, and yet all alone
In a fog of doom, wish I had known
You'd leave so soon, it's me you've outgrown
I don't know where or what I'm looking for,
But I cry tears like I've never cried before...
In this crowded resteraunt, and yet all alone
The stares of people gawking at the pathetic creature I've become
I've gotten used to it.. not being understood by many, but only by some
But the some, is so few,
I just don't know what to do...
Dare I pull the trigger and let it all go away...
No, I won't, because I still have hope for a brighter day.
But I also feel hopeless and barely alive
I tried to breathe, you know... count backwards from five
But I tell you, I'm in a crowded room and yet all alone...
You left my heart hurting, and I just wish I had known
How you felt, so that I'd have appeased your grief,
And sighed the sigh of a gentle relief...
Not many understand what it's like to live this way
In a crowded room, but you're so very far away
I just can't live like this forever... in this dispairing gloom
I wish I had known, I just wish I had known...
In a crowded room, and yet all alone