Confusing Feeling Poem by DeAngelo Townsell

The feeling you get when you get an A on a test.
When you win your first race or get your first kiss.
Like the time you see the girl you really like.
For 3 months straight, she never leaves your sight.
You get this feeling, this feeling that’s anything but fake.
The feeling that secures you like an emergency brake.
This feeling is invisible like a ghost you can not see.
And can only be visualized if you were with me.
But that’s just is, the missing piece to the puzzle.
I knew it was a good feeling, when I saw your reflection in a rain puddle.
This feeling is so confusing it was told to be ignored.
And that’s something I wont do until my feelings are restored.
Some say I shouldn’t have this feeling because you do not care.
But they’re not me and I’m not them so of course they’re not aware.
This feeling I have has no name, its more like a blur.
Its like I’m just sitting here anxious, waiting for something to occur.
Running into brick walls after every attempt to be acknowledged.
The feeling is that of a high school student but yet, I’m in college.
I don’t know, maybe its just nothing.
Deep down inside I just hope it’s a little something.
So for now all I can do is pray and put my head to the ceiling.
Until I know, and understand, the meaning of this feeling.
Who is this feeling for? Who is making me feel like this?
Its obviously someone special, and someone that I miss.