Confliction Poem by Confusion Undastood

Muddled, my mind is as muddled as can be,
I look at you and words I cant seem to express
just float and sink and twirl around escaping my lips

I have so much to say, yet I just can’t bring myself to say it
So much I want to do, yet I cant bring myself to do it.

You cant see behind my mask,
You cant even begin to read my thoughts
I am as confusing to you as I am to myself

I already took a risk and accidentally revealed more of me to you than I planned to do
Only to play cat and mouse, checkers, tennis, poker and chess.

I wonder what would happen if I make that ultimate decision
The one my pride, my past hurts, my heavily fortified heart and mind
My skewed understanding of life and people wont freely allow me to do

I wonder what would happen if I open up and give my scarred heart to you.
I wonder what would you do, if not add scars and break it too…