Cant You See It In My Eyes? (Revised) Poem by LaCicely Nicole

You gave me Faith in men again, I can agree
All to take it back from me.
I thought surely this was all a dream
that you'd return someday most certainly.

Cant you see it in my eyes?
There was a connection from the time our eyes met
It wouldnt be for some time yet
that I would know what that connection meant
but before long, it would be over with.

Cant you see it in my eyes?
Our connection we could never hide!
No matter how much we both tried
Us meeting and these created memories
could not be denied.

God got both our attention in different ways.
We had some pretty good and some horribly bad days.
But in the end, those 'trying times'
those are by which two people bind.
We found love in a hopeless place
fulfilling each others empty spaces.

Cant you see it in my eyes?
That I was your biggest cheerleader
wanting nothing more for you to become an achiever
To see your spread your wings
enjoy this life, you know... new things.

Cant you see it in my eyes?
The love I had for you simply could not be denied
Everyday when I awoke next to you in that hospital room
with every changed patch and dressing I applied to your wound.

Cant you see it in my eyes?
You and I were RIDE OR DIE
We had an amazing journey on lifes high!
We saw each others MANY sides...
the Bonnie to your Clyde
the expectations of a Groom and his Bride.

Cant you see it in my eyes?
My loyalty to you and still you leave
Leave me all alone with our business and our home?
I tried every day to keep the tears from coming on trying to be strong.

Cant you see it in my eyes?
My soul was one with you.
You ALWAYS said it not 'me', its 'we'... just us two.
I avoided love in all my guarded ways
but in my heart, you had found your way.

Cant you see it in my eyes?
My life no longer mattered because your life was completely shattered. (thats LOVE.)
I often feel sorry for you because you continue to mask your pain
behind the collection of every new woman.

In you I had so much confidence
Looking back, it really doesnt make much sense.
I was your lover AND your friend.
Did I deserve this in the end? ?

Cant you see it in my eyes?
The hurt and pain I felt when I found out you were cheating on the internet?
While I lay in pain from the loss of our babies whom we never met?

Cant you see it in my eyes?
that my light is not as bright?
because you are no longer in my life?
or is it because you chose to make someone else your wife?
In time my heart continues to mend
and I thank God sometimes this had to end.
Because I knew when you cheated on HER with me in that car seat
You would have never changed for you and me!
Even on my birthday you were reaching out to CHEAT.
Had me thinking I was making you so happy!
If I'd done half those things you tried to do
You would've BEEN gone! You would have been THROUGH!
But you gave in before God could take you under His wing
going back to being Lucifer's playful little thing.
You met a stranger and asked her to be your WIFE
as if she'd been there thru all these things in your LIFE! !

Cant you see it in my eyes?
Its like you up and suddenly died
to no longer have you by my side.
I cannot cry but I can no longer hide
in my heart you will forever lie.
I am most disappointed in me
for getting in this thing so deep.
I should have kept you far away from me
and my KIDS hearts, more importantly...
You thought of only yourself when time came
not owning up to nor taking the blame
for causing such false love and deception
chasing after hoes... I was so disgusted.

Cant you see it in my eyes?
Im not quite as happy as I used to be
but I believe time heals and that IS someone out here for me.
Who will love me completely unconditionally.
I am not bitter, in fact, Im MORE BOLD
as I watch the journey of my life unfold.
You will always be the death of me
more than you can ever believe.
'FLAWS AND ALL'... I'll love you til
the day my eyes close and my grave is filled.