Broken Hearted Poem by Jessica Kissner

I thought I was done
Being broken hearted
I thought I was finally
Going to be loved
But I ruin everything
I ruin my own life
Maybe I'm better left
Dead on the street
Better left on my own
I distroy everyones love
because they misunderstand me
why do I have to be alone
why do I have to be different
how can I stop this
how can it change
I should never speak with anyone
I should never hurt them more
one simple thing
turns into a fight
and I'm left standing
alone in the tears
tears that won't go away
my dreams came true
I knew they would
Those nightmare like thoughts
swiming in my head
the ghosts now laugh
at my misery
maybe I should let them
distroy my soul
forshadow me till I'm no longer me
they could probably
do better then me
lost souls who are sad
like me cry out
but I'm the only one
who hears their crys
Who hears mine I ask
no one answers
Only goddess in heaven
in the sky you are there
I wish I could live
with that mother up there
not down where I hurt
not down where I lose
I tryed so hard
to not be me
not push away someone
who wanted to help
but I seem to have now
because I'm stupid like that
I selfish *&^(#
I shall always be it seems
because of a misunderstanding
I'm alone again
no one to hug me
no one to care
I thought I was through
with sad love songs
but I can't stop listening
to the words 'you are gone'
love for my friends
seems to be onesided hope
I cling to others
in hope to be pulled up
A blind man wishing to see
a cripled man wanting to walk
the old bible stories
with one savior in each
I don't have that
he left me long ago
I was once able
to look at people
now I know
I'm not even human
I'm below them all
I'm not fit to be here
nor there with that mother
So here I've come
To the end of my psalm
to scared to die
and save them all
but knowing I'll be writing
like this one more
my sad feelings
never going to go away
and the people I put my trust it
will keep on taking it