A lonely flower in a field
A lonely child does not yield
A lonely star in the night sky
A lonely man gives up to die
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I trust the dirt, I trust the rain
I trust the cars, I trust the train
I trust the secrets, I trust the truth
I trust the old, I trust the youth
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All I want is freedom
Is that too much to ask?
All I yearn for is freedom
I’m stuck inside this flask
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I sit here just wondering
How it got so bad
Reminiscing all the happy times
That I once did have
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There used to be a time where happy families existed
And the love never died out, the longing for love persisted
You and mum once had that love; it soon came to an end
Maybe it was best for us all, maybe a god send
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Mum walks into my bedroom, discovers me on the floor
Drops to her knees and cries, she doesn’t know, she’s not quite sure
If I’m dead or unconscious, I’m just laying there deathly still
She yells to me and shakes me then sees the blood I’ve spilled
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Its fear that whispers to me in my ear, it is fear that I hear say
“You’re afraid of me the most; I’ll hold you back all day”
Its fear which I listen to, to make my every decision
Its fear that helps to guide me on, creating each vision
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I have a special package, one I made for you
It has a special meaning and hopes you find it true.
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I think back to five minutes ago as I sharpened my blade
Sitting on the bathroom floor, my mindset everywhere splayed
Reminiscing all the angry times, from past until this date
Fitting in a state of regret, already it is too late
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It’s time to apologize, it’s way overdue
Say sorry to my razor carved body and my slashed up mind too
Time to say sorry for the trouble and mistakes I’ve made
This apology appears truthful and very much delayed
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