Baby Boy Of Mine Poem by Jody L. Moody

I cant seem to find the words,
that could even begin to explain,
all the sorrow grief and hurt,
of your little life I failed to gain.

It just didn`t matter how much,
I wanted to hear your first cry,
your little body layed so lifeless,
and all I could do was ask why.

why couldn't your tiny heart beat again,
and your pretty little eyes shine,
why couldn't god make you breathe,
and just let you be a baby of mine.

your little face was so perfect,
as were your tiny finger and toes,
such a beautiful little baby boy,
with the cutest lips and nose.

I just don't know how to accept,
your precious life taken from me,
my heart is physicallly acheing,
bounded here in a circle of grief.

Only three days before were to meet,
and its so hard to believe,
just the cord around your little neck,
is what took you away from me.

I carried you for 9 whole months,
feeling your every little move,
and its killing me to know,
that you died inside my womb.

I never got to meet you,
or feel the warmth of your tiny hand,
or tell you that I love you,
my miracle, my little man.

It was so hard to go in with a baby,
and leave with just a tiny box,
I felt like I had been beaten,
and bruised by heavy rocks.

I awaited your arrival,
for so many long months,
you were my next beautiful world,
that crashed down all at once.

I miss you so very much,
It hurts to even breathe,
my precious little boy,
I carried inside of me.

now its a place you will always be,
a tiny heart that beats inside mine,
I will never stop thinking of you,
until we meet in heaven's time.

3/19/2010