anees akbar (6/12 / india)

Alone I sit,
Alone I think,
Alone I experience,
Alone I cry,
Alone I reach for the knife,
Alone I cut,
Alone I watch the blood,
Alone I feel the pain.

Alone I sit,
Alone I think about cutting deeper,
Alone I experience my sadness,
Alone I cry my eyes out,
Alone I reach for the knife,
Alone I cut my wrists just a tiny bit deeper,
Alone I feel the pain.

Alone I sit,
Alone I think about slicing pictures,
Alone I experience my emptiness,
Alone I cry for all I’ve lost,
Alone I reach for the knife,
Alone I cut nice drawings for all of those who want to watch,
Alone I feel the pain.

Alone I sit,
Alone I think about finishing it all,
Alone I experience a new kind of numb feeling take over me,
Alone I cry for all that’s been and never will be again,
Alone I reach for the knife,
Alone I cut through the vein,
Alone I no longer feel the pain.