All My Life Poem by Terrin Fuller

All my life
i held back the tear's
i hold back in fear

everyday i cry
im ripped apart
and my emotion's are jumbled

everyday i wish
wish she would just realize
realize what she has done
I've been ripped apart
the family has too

she doesn't realize
where she has gone
or what she has done

all my life
it has been pain and fear
there is no need to hold back
the pain and fear
it's just more to deal with here

all my life
i had to deal with abuse
and drug use

all my life
i have to fear
so i know they'll be here
for the next year

this is my life
and i am not holding back
pain and fear
its just the time
that we give up
and stop trying to help

im sorry mom
this is my life
not your's

you have lost respect
not only for you
but the respect
of the family and me

I love you mom
and there's still hope