After Reading Your Blog 2006 Poem by Claire Ann Sansolis

I never thought I'd hurt this way
To know your heart, to know your past
I wish I could have saved you then
And catch your heart from falling
But what can I do if it was three years ago
I may have had my own issues to settle then

I tried to cry it all out on my bed
I was sad, I was broken with your secret blog that I read
How could I have allowed myself to love you this way?
I was blind to see you are still all over her

Though I am trying to see light in all of these
I don't know why I should be caught up in these
You have no idea how I care for you
I have no idea why all these feelings for you

I know that my purpose is to bring out the best in you
To inspire you to live and see what is TRUE
But I didn't plan to be caught in an emotional trap
To love and be rejected because of my foolish heart



My friends would say I am easy to love
I may have some guys' lined up and say they were in love
It maybe that I'm clueless or am I too focused?
I'm asking myself why of all people the spotlight's on you?


I know I have been engaged twice in a row
Four years has passed and
I am still looking for something that is true
I will continue to wait for the man to come
Because I still believe in love that lasts


To have met you at this time and fall for you
It was a great surprise not just to me but also to you
God is too wise to be mistaken
I know there's a divine purpose
That's why my heart is wide open


I will be still and know that He is God
He is Sovereign over all and Lord of my heart
Though I am crushed by your blows of silence
He knows all my needs and He alone feels my pain