Adieu! Life Moved On Poem by Sh'vaun Keeley

To the past!
It did go so fast.
At one point, I had them both when suddenly!
A change of heart.
I spoke my truth and bid them goodbye.
But now comes the sadness in saying farewell.
Never seeing his face or hearing his laughter again.
Another one on the go.
Like a soldier in the heat of the fire, I march on in solitude.
Destination unknown but I'll sing the song of my heart and hope that it's heard.
This can only last so much longer, this solitude of silence on my own.
Not having a voice to share with a man so freely and completely is maddening in my world,
as it always has been.
So often feeling as though someone is missing, the puzzle piece, the key to unlock me so lively.
Vividly remembering you shoving me on the bed and telling me to get onto my knees.
The twinkle in your eyes, your mouth so rough and soft. The aggression in me bursting out. A chemistry reaction so altered in time.
Feeling your eyes on me as the tears poured down my cheeks, reassuring me that it would all be okay.
I remember telling you you were my best friend but I knew it wouldn't last forever.
Things changed. People came in and I had to let you out of mine.
I miss you! At least, in this moment when I glance upon memory lane.
You were always a better friend and lover to me than a husband to be.
I love you, Snape and I'll always be your Lily but I don't need you anymore.
My brains been altered with so many facts of my waning reality.
Adieu, Adieu. Shakespeare was right, "Parting is such sweet sorrow".
And to you, little rugged man.
Fuckkkkkkkkkk
It makes me a little bit sad that I only had you for a little while, a little space in my time, a little bit of good. Just a little...
I wanted a little more than I thought I originally did.
You see, I was still stuck on Snape that day I met you but I was blown away.
Your words, you have a gift. I fell in love with those words.
I wanted to fall in love with you but you weren't ready.
It's still not okay so it's not over but in reality, I think I know the truth.
I was the rebound. I hope I was the best rebound you ever have in your life.
You certainly were for me.
If my morals weren't so wrapped up in my stubborness, I would have slapped you around a hell of a lot more.
But alas!
Just as fast as it began it ended fast.
I'm still waiting though I know I shouldn't.
All I know is that I wished one night that I could have you and a part of me still does but is there really a point in wasting my time?
My train already departed.
You didn't catch up.
So....farewell to you as well.
Now here I sit, writing these words out because my heart is a smidgen melancholy about the men I had to say good bye to.
It's time for me to give it God and let it be. I know what it is I truly seek and my faith will never deplete my hope for true love's first kiss.
Dry spells eventually end after all and everyone deserves their own happily ever after.
Cheers to the present moment and blessings in my future.