About You And Restraint.... Poem by RIC BASTASA

it's the mystery in you

that makes me

somber, or perhaps dumber

i think more of you

and i ask so many questions

all my answers are wrong

i go into the details

letter by letter in my book

i utter the syllables hoping that in each sound

i can find

an exit to this useless mess

i stare at you

in those moments of my chaos

my thoughts are wild

i have lost control

and restraint buries itself

on the ground that it dug for days

i have not traveled so well

in the past

trying to explain why this hour is

sad

i dream

that i have another face

another body

i see yours

limpid on the floor

calling my name


i did not say a word

as i look for the best explanation

why we cannot be

one in the heat in bed.


there is a fire that consumes

me

i am praying for a storm

i am wishing for

rain

i am a ship without anchor

there is no shore

in view


i look at you

i am a meteor in the sky

shooting myself

in space


lost with so much distance.