A Sad Truth Poem by Red Rover

your presence lingers in me,
that every time were together
I feel like am different person
and I love the person you made me..
am so happy, it was really more like me..
and this is what I just exactly wanted, to be myself..
People would always turn me into a person they wanted me to be like...
they always turned me into their fantasy..or what they have pictured in mind
and am tired of people playing with my emotion..

I want to be free with you!
its with you I feel loved, cared and I had felt all the attention
dat was locked since I was born..
But One sad truth... WE CANT and I CANT!
I belong to someone.. who happens not to know my worth as a person
who never appreciate all the things i've done for him
and I cant just take it back...
A commitment I made... a promise dat I shouldnt break.

and so am afraid to lose you..
I know I am being selfish of holding both of you
and I dont know If I am hurting you the way I was hurt...
its sad that I sit beside him, but my heart is already with you...
its foolish and Im becoming Unfaithful.but not with him, but with you!

Do I have to let you go? even if all I want is to hold you closer and closer..
my mind says YES! so I would not hurt anyone but my self..
I have to make a right decision, but what's wrong with loving?
am just a fool who fall for someone, whom I know would never loved me the way I want him to do...
because for him am just his 'BESTFRIEND'

I want to hate him for not feeling the way I do..
but then I just had to be glad for him still staying with me..though I only love him way apart
and I am loving him behind this bars...

my only dream was you to stay and never leave me..
i know It will be the saddest part seeing you with other
but if she does make you happy, I'll be glad..
she just have to make sure, she'd never hurt you...or I'll get you back..
and take you elsewhere, where could be alone and keep you forever with me..

I could tolerate all the hurts, being with another, while my heart cries to be with you..
I could take all the pain, seeing you holding her, just make sure your'e still and we are still what we are..

Your like my pill, you always makes me feel better
and also you always makes me ill..
I just want to grow old with you
even if it would be just the same.
I love you for being my everything
while you love me being your best friend..

One thing for sure I'll do...
I will stay... Not leave... not change..
my heart is always with you while am with him and your with her..

please stay! A bit apart of you kill's me
so dont be a murderer
stay close not an inch away from me..

thank you for being there to understand