A Beautiful Pain You'Ve Caused Poem by Angelica Duardo

A beautiful pain you've caused
Worthy of praise and thought
But the morning announced this ill
That morning I first met you here

I fooled my own self, my heart
And childishly ignored that qualm (hunch)
That warned me against your ways
I made myself blind and deaf

Still now that nothing remains
I ask you to quiet this pain
My sense of loss heavy weighs
Can't move onto better days

And might as I try, I must
I must not deny my cry
It empties this pain inside
This beautiful pain you caused

It is senseless this sense of loss
For I always knew it would come
You never were in disguise
I knew well you were tainted, vile

Call me foolish for wanting you then
Call me heartless for wanting you now
I keep hurting myself with you
Even now when my pain has worn out