Morgan Tayce

I cant look at you without crying
My heart skips a beat
I want you so bad
Im getting so weak
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i want so bad to say something to you about it,
but i dont know if i should.
i dont want to cause a problem,
if there is no need to be.
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Its all an attempt to hide what i really feel
A cover up for my pain
But your the drug that numbs my mind
baby you keep me sane
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Why do your words still hurt?
Why does everything you say make my heart sink?
How come even though ive found love, your still always on my mind?
Why does everyone else notice it to?
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Fear.
Fear of being lonely.
Fear of letting someone past.
Fear of getting too close.
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The sun fades as the day goes by
Another minuet lost
Happiness, fear, intimidation all felt
For true life, what is the cost?
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I really dont know what to say. I thought i would just let my feelings pour and hope it helps me sort my thoughts.

Things arent the way i want them to be. I wish i was still at home. I miss it. Its so hard for me to adapt to new things. To everybody else it may look like im doing ok, but in reality, deep inside i feel like crying all the time. Sometimes, i just want a way out. A way to escape. I feel like when i go to sleep, i never want to have to wake up. && when the morning comes, my alarm clock sounds, and im sad i have to face another day. Why cant i live in my dreams, good bad or indifferent. Anything would be better than trying to smile all day long when my body wants to give up. I see this room, me in the middle, on the floor crying. Wishing time would stop and i didnt have to go on. But everyone walks around me, doesnt see me, doesnt stop to ask if im okay. Just this little girl, hurt and the pain never stops. I beg for it to be over, for it to be just a dream that i cant wake up from, in hopes one day this will be all in the past. but i cant seem to escape from my feelings. im trying so hard to forget it all.
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Idk y... i want so bad to forget your face, forget your kiss, forget your laugh. but i cant. and idk y.

idk y... your love has my heart tangeled in a knot that i cant get out. and no mater who i turn to, the only one who can help me is who hurt me. you. and idk y.
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so mad at life
dont know who to turn to
this blade in my hand
or the pills in the other
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do you care
do you see it
the blood draining
the life right out of her
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Whats the point to cry,
if you only cry in the rain?
no body see's your tears,
or even feels your pain.
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I wrote this poem for you
because you need somthing to hold on to.
When your world is falling down,
trust me, I won't let you drown
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