John Krysinski

It's been hours now just laying in bed
Almost time to get up for work but only your in my head
I'm laughing at myself for wishing for the same fantasy
Of you finally choosing you really want to be with me
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i dont know why i try
i have no chance with her
everytime i try to tell her
she either doesnt want to listen or ignores
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I love to cause myself physical pain
the pain i feel overrides my brain
i forget the pain in my heart
the pain that slowly rips me apart
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as we layed in our beds and talked about things to come
a feeling of love and happiness would fill up our hearts
time would stand still as we hold each other tight
tears would slowly form in each others eyes but we would not cry
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a old couple walks down the street in front of me
a smile is on each of their faces as they hold hands and walk slowly
I watched until they disappear into the distance
thinking to myself must be wonderful not to be lonely
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waiting for the day everything just comes to an abrupt stop
for me to find peace and have my last heartfelt tear to drop
longing for the moment i hear that last click
with silence filling the air and my heart finally quits
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ever since the day we met you made my heart yours
with your love you made my heart and soul pure
i use to have hopeless visions of my past
you the reason they no longer last
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nothing is worth the sleep that i lost
dreams i had were not worth having
thoughts that came across were meaningless
lifes problems were my mistakes
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thru my life i made many mistakes
but all will stop when my life i take
many times ive done wrong
hurting everyone all day long
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my tortured soul shall never rest
the pain i feel stays in my chest
saddness i have no regets i take
all of lifes sorrow for my mistakes
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through many deaths and much pain
my hopeless soul stays the same
without life there is only death
and with death there is nothing left
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many reason my life is great
one is because of the woman i date
endless love is what i'll show only to you
sleepless night are spent alone thinking of you
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your lips went down upon my flesh
your hands went up and down my chest
my pain i had you took away
with every second of everday
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my life really isnt that bad....
who am i kidding defintly not me
i try my hardest to be the best
but no one cares to look and see
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my thoughts come like rain from clouds
feelings are kept silent never spoken outloud
lifes too precious to take time away
for i loved a girl every night and day
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why do i hate myself why do u love me
why cant i love you the way you have love for me

what is my problem what went wrong
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her 'i love yous' seem so empty to me
like a window which thru my eyes can see
i know she means well but its not from her heart
everytime i talk to her we grow slowly slowly apart
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