Forever Troubled

I need to die
This guilt and pain has become too much
Engulfed in darkness
Can barely handle the despair…
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From the bottom of this black hole for a heart
I feel the emptiness bound to my very soul
How could you make me feel this way...
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Heart still hurting...
Knees still shacking...
When will this end?
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The pain of life
Rolling down my cheeks
Sadden sorrow of disbelieve
What have I done
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Oh, how I long for the pain
Oh, how I long for the shame
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Without the right to question
Man can’t be man…
Questions are the root of all that is good
And evil
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I can feel it
Feel it thrashing around
Taring limb from limb
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Hold on tight
Life's about to start

Scared?
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I don't know anymore...
All these scars...
It seems to never end
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