Attila İlhan

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Attilâ İlhan (15 June 1925 – 11 October 2005) was a Turkish poet, novelist, essayist, journalist and reviewer. Attilâ İlhan was born in Menemen in İzmir Province, Turkey on 15 June 1925. He received most of his primary education in İzmir. However, because of his father's job, he completed his junior high school education in different cities. Aged 16 and enrolled in İzmir Atatürk High School, he got into trouble for sending a poem by Nazım Hikmet, a famous dissident communist Turkish poet, to a girl he was in love with. He was arrested and taken into custody for three weeks. He was also dismissed from school and jailed for two months. After his imprisonment, İlhan was forbidden from attending any schools in Turkey, thus interrupting his education. Following a favourable court decision in 1941, he received permission to continue his education again and enrolled in Istanbul Işık High School. During the last year of his high school education, his uncle sent one of his poems to CHP Poetry Competition without telling Attilâ. The poem, Cebbaroğlu Mehemmed won the second prize among many poems written by famous poets. He gratuated from high school in 1942 and enrolled in İstanbul University's law school. However, he left midway through his legal education to pursue his own endeavours and published his first poetry book, Duvar (The Wall). In his second year at Istanbul University, he went to Paris in order to take part in supporting Nazım Hikmet. His observations of the French and their culture were to influence many of his works. After returning to Turkey, he repeatedly ran into trouble with the police. Interrogations in Sansaryan Han influenced his works based on death, thriller, etc. He went back to Paris again in 1951 because of an official investigation about an article in Gerçek newspaper. In this period he learned to speak French and studied Marxist philosophy. In the 1950s Attilâ İlhan spent his days along an İstanbul–Paris–İzmir triangle and during this period he started to become popular in Turkey. After returning to Turkey, he resumed studying law. However, in his last year at law school, he left university and took up a journalistic career. His relationship with the cinema also started in this year. He began writing movie reviews and critiques in Vatan newspaper. After completing his military service in Erzurum in 1957, İlhan returned to İstanbul and concentrated on cinema. He wrote screenplays for nearly 15 movies under the nom de plume Ali Kaptanoğlu. However, cinema didn't meet his expectations and he went back to Paris in 1960. During this period, he analyzed the development of socialism and television. The unexpected death of his father caused him to return to his hometown of İzmir, where he would remain for the next eight years. During this period, he served as the editorial writer and editor-in-chief of the Democratic İzmir newspaper. During the same years, he also wrote poetry books, Yasak Sevişmek and Bıçağın Ucu of the Aynanın İçindekiler series.)

The Best Poem Of Attila İlhan

Ben Sana Mecburum

Ben sana mecburum bilemezsin
Adını mıh gibi aklımda tutuyorum
Büyüdükçe büyüyor gözlerin
Ben sana mecburum bilemezsin
İçimi seninle ısıtıyorum.
Ağaçlar sonbahara hazırlanıyor
Bu şehir o eski İstanbul mudur
Karanlıkta bulutlar parçalanıyor
Sokak lambaları birden yanıyor
Kaldırımlarda yağmur kokusu
Ben sana mecburum sen yoksun.

Ölmek kimi zaman rezilce korkuludur
İnsan bir akşam üstü ansızın yorulur
Tutsak ustura ağzında yaşamaktan
Kimi zaman ellerini kırar tutkusu
Bir kaç hayat çıkarır yaşamasından
Hangi kapıyı çalsa kimi zaman
Arkasında yalnızlığın hınzır uğultusu

Fatih'te yoksul bir gramafon çalıyor
Eski zamanlardan bir cuma çalıyor
Durup köşe başında deliksiz dinlesem
Sana kullanılmamış bir gök getirsem
Haftalar ellerimde ufalanıyor
Ne yapsam ne tutsam nereye gitsem
Ben sana mecburum sen yoksun.

Belki haziranda mavi benekli çocuksun
Ah seni bilmiyor kimseler bilmiyor
Bir şilep sızıyor ıssız gözlerinden
Belki Yeşilköy'de uçağa biniyorsun
Bütün ıslanmışsın tüylerin ürperiyor
Belki körsün kırılmışsın telaş içindesin
Kötü rüzgar saçlarını götürüyor

Ne vakit bir yaşamak düşünsem
Bu kurtlar sofrasında belki zor
Ayıpsız fakat ellerimizi kirletmeden
Ne vakit bir yaşamak düşünsem
Sus deyip adınla başlıyorum
İçim sıra kımıldıyor gizli denizlerin
Hayır başka türlü olmayacak
Ben sana mecburum bilemezsin.

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