Ashley Kolakowski

I dream of death
I feel the pain
I cut my veins until im almost drained
No one knows and if they did the would be ashamed
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Knowing my plan,
I check on my family,
They are sound asleep.
I whisper 'I am sorry' to all of them,
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Going 90 miles per hour down the road,
Tears rushing down my face,
Begging to just die
Music on full blast.
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You see that girl next to you in class?
You know she keeps herself high,
She does it to hide from the pain.
She is hooked on pain killers.
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It is not the end,
But it is the beginning.
The start of a new life.
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Just a little boy,
Out playing, enjoying.
Not realizing the van was headed towards him.
Knocks him off his bike,
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A beautiful girl,
A handsome boy,
I sit and watch
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Everyone wonders why I want to die.
No one knows the truth.
Not even my best friend.
Im physically abused by my brother,
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As the clock keeps ticking,
Im counting down the minutes until I can take my life.
Counting down until I will finally be free.
I count down until I will be able to have a real smile.
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The pain leads to drugs and suicide.
Cutting and smoking
Blood everywhere.
Used needles.
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The remarks remind you how good it made you feel.
Next time you grab the blade,
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No one believes it.
Her parents are crushed.
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Just a young girl,
No more than 16 years old,
Her parents left her alone again
She likes when they leave
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I'm sick of all your games,
You pushed me too far,
And now im gone.
I hope you sit and regret what you did to me.
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Junior in high school,
Team Player,
An amazing friend,
She hides a big secret from the whole world.
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I have cookie cutter hands
Keep all sharp objects away
If I get ahold of it,
I will kill myself.
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The smell of blood in the air has me scared,
Whats going on
All I did was go to a party,
I experimented with drugs and got into the car
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So fed up of living this life.
So fed up of feeling the way I do.
Ready to say good bye to this life...
Ready to end it all.
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As everyone drifts off to sleep,
He sits in his room all alone,
Looking through old pictures,
Memories of her flood back.
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Seventeen year old girl sits quietly in class...
Watching all of her classmates smile and laugh,
No one knowing her plan,
Today was the day.
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