Accidental Emo

All this time I've been here.
Sittin and wastin, standin and hopin
that you'd come back.
But knowin this hope will be wasted..
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I guess if I visit your heart,
I'd found myself but livin with other girls.
I'm not sad but glad,
Because I know this is your world..
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I wonder how long I can keep my mask,
This is not the real me who's pretendin.
It's not surprise that you never ask,
All because I'm workin too well on actin.
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After all this times we used to have,
the promises he made me to believe,
now it's all broke, and he leaves.
He left, left me with memories.
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I'd live as you never existed,
Hear as I'm not listenin,
See but not lookin,
Sense but not feelin.
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I don't mind losin my blood, you know?
If I can turn the pain into pleasure,
It'd flows with joy even though it gets destroyed,
But I don't have any choices.
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I sat down in a place
where everyone have gone far away.
Now I don't have to be okay,
I should be free after today.
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One day lover, unexpected to be my favourite.
Before the day ends, I made a wish:
Wish I can live my life in this moment
and put this end to where my life ends.
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I might as well be a good actor,
Pretending that I'm fine.
But who would know everyday I'm weaker,
Sometimes think of suicide.
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I don't want to hear, I don't want to care!
But I can't help it you're walking away.
I want to follow, I want to chase,
But I cannot lift my legs up the stairs.
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What a wonderful day
if we didn't break up the second time,
it'd be a year today
and you'd be here with me aside.
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I Thought when you're gone,
I can forget about you,
but knowin that I can't.
What else can I do?
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This place no one's around,
Here not even a sound.
People are nowhere near me,
I'm sufferin moen than others can see.
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I felt some strange today, then I realise
It must be somethin special but not going to happen.
I know what it is, my beloved came back a year ago today
I've been waitin for this day for a year.
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Have this number dialed but never called,
I have tripped over you, wish I didn't fall.
To you I am just only a normal friend,
I wonder if this feelings ever going to end.
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Those lies are all discoverd, no more left to hide.
Don't trying to lie after I've heard it so many times.
Don't trying to get me confused, with all your excuses.
You can never hurt me again cause I got used to this pain.
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Underneath the same sky,
knowin that you're all right.
I could not want more than that
if the present could change it to the past.
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Promises were made to break,
You left the sharp broken glasses for me to pick,
It is all the broken pieces of my heart,
that you stabbed it with knife and torn it apart.
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Since you left, loneliness joins with me
It comes to visit me when you're away.
All that left was memories of you and me.
For a long while, my world was grey.
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Wish you a Happy Christmas!
To receive your most wanted present
from the person who you'd like to be given.
Show all the things that you've hidden.
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