All That I Am Poem by Jon Hark

Locked up inside, no one wants me out
can't understand the understood but insanity is my bible
life is a lie, unless you know how to live.
you are a lie unless you know who you are.
see what I am and spit in my face.
love yourself because your the perfect race.
love doesn't get your far in this hateful place.
one day I'll escape myself and lay you all to waste.
understand I'm not you
understand I'm a part of you
understand I'm apart from you
understand you are a part of me
you are the sickness in me
diseased me
hollowed my heart out
dead without a doubt
but living to doubt you
I can't say I'm sorry for things I'm not
which sin is worse in your eyes
you are a hypercritical heretic and you hide it
you lie to yourself
but I'm worse right
because you're so perfect
I'm a heretic and I'm proud of what I believe,
I'll die before Hippocratic consumes me
god will decide my after
I will decide my before
you will not make me false
sanity is all I've lost
I still hold love
which is the one thing that kills me
so I've locked me up inside myself
you don't want me now
but when you do you won't have a key to this private cage I've created
numbed sense of nonsense
filthy inside, tainted on purpose
painted myself just for you to look and hate
hate is less painful than false love
am I disturbed
am I disturbing you.
turn and leave like you want to, don't lie to your self
you'd hate before love
you don't see love, respect, truth, or life
you see what you want, ignore your self and others
because tradition, habit, and stupidity
lack of self and obvious distaste in the art of intelligent thought.
let me be
alone
if all you want me to be is a clone
the cage is more understanding
I'll stay here, teeth grinding
agonizing silence
hypnotizebylove
I'll float through a sea of lies and their masters
cant understand the understood, but insanity is my bible.