You Won't Look At Me! Poem by Celia AmanteaSchulz

YOU WON'T LOOK AT ME!

What does that mean?

Angry with me! ? Why?

We are not in High School!

I thrive on your relation to me…

I can't deny it.


Is it too painful for me to be close?

It is too painful for me to retreat.

I realized that I tried everything in my power to find you.

When I didn't understand what happened...between us.

Friended your sister

Showed up at your house

Called you it seems a thousand times...thanks Adele

You were nowhere to be found.

You were angry..

You wouldn't speak.



Does seeing me bring all that back?

We made up…

We apologized.

We danced… and I made sure of that

Because you said we never would.


Is this how you challenge me?

Am I like a two year old?

If you say no...I have to have it?

Prove you otherwise?

Fine.

I am pushed to continue then.


Yes I know we did things we shouldn't have

We pushed the limits

But then there was Usher and the mid-life crisis crisis

For god's sakes…

Everyone was nuts!


Suddenly it seemed that it was just me

A foolish soul

Knowing nothing

Misunderstanding everything

Fell into a black hole

That only you could pull me out of.


Or fooling myself that it was you pulling me out

When it was me that fought long and strong.

Credit to both..

My reaching out to you

Sparked this creativity

How to reach you…

With my creativity.

The circle again.

Spinning Wheel.

High School.


Racine means Roots

How fitting

I wished you would write about me

But you didn't

And that is how I knew

That I would never know

What you didn't want to say.