Within My Battles And Struggles Poem by Pam Fraser

Everyday within My battles and the struggles
to win this fight inside
Just when I am thinking I am winning
I end up breaking down and asking for help.

I seek help from up above or help from deep within inside of me
I feel theses tears running down my face
I think of another place other then here

Thinking of this fear that this battle never ends
I feel finished, done, it’s over...
Do I love him anymore?

Going back and forth with other thoughts going
to all the promises that were made
I do I still need him? , and do I still want him?

Do I have still have the craving of everything
that he was once was before?
Each night when I lay down.
I still remember everything we been thou

How could he do this? Or is it me? Who doesn’t see?
How I feel he has broken my heart in two
He says he would change it all…..
If these many things we are going threw I feel He lies. All of it is lies
He told me it was mere all in my head.

Through out my tears I tried to do my best to believe
with every word he says
I hang on to love him because he loves me
Maybe in some ways I could be wrong.

In the end he breaks me down I feel I am nothing.
and I think what if He had been lying all along.
I know I should get angry……….. and stand on my ground
It would help to block what I found is an0ther in from my heart
I am smart no one will no how I feel it will be just me

So as of tonight as I lay down and my day draws to an end, and
I know tomorrow the fight within will go on once again
within My battles and struggles