Who Am I? Poem by Silver Akira

I have gone from a small innocent and happy child,
To a dark person,
My soul is tattered and torn,
And my heart is destroyed,
I remember all the good times but,
Their light no longer pierces the void,
I'm somewhere between life and death,
I dress completly in black trying to hide who I am,
Everytime someone gets close I lose another piece of myself to the black abyss,
People look at me and whisper about the person I used to be,
I ignore them,
Even my friends worry,
I lock myself away in a dark room,
Sometimes the sound of the radio can be heard,
Other times one might hear sobs,
Rocking back and forth on the bed I look around,
Just once I want to be excepted,
Not hated because I'm diffrent,
It's been 3 years since I lost my grandfather,
My parents picked up and left,
Now I have nothing to live for.
Even I know that if I remain nothing will ever be right again,
As I walk outside I hear voices calling my name,
I can't tell if it's reality or a dream..
I head for the lake,
Where I remember how my ex held me close,
I close my eyes and walk into the lake holding my breath,
Water rushes through my open mouth,
I open my eyes and see only black,
I soon stop moving and beneath the water if one were to look close,
They would see the innocence of who I used to be,
Versus who I had become.