What Ever It Takes Poem by Terrin Fuller

I will do what ever it takes
to make it for me to go home
or to let me be free
i just wish that i can be
there with all of you
i just wish that i can
be the old me
the one that was home
with the family and friends
i never thought it would end up like this
i never thought i would be this far down
i just wish they would put me in the ground
or be able to say that they have found
the Terrin i used to be
but no, nobody can see
that i am hurting so bad with pain
i feel like my heart is being ripped apart
i feel like i did not belong
or that i was not supposed to be here
i just wish that they would leave me be
they would see that i want to be
that kid i used to be
or the kid that did somewhat good
but that day i believe will never come
all i want to do is use
because i do not feel blue
i dont even feel like me
but i dont even remember who i used to be
all i know is that this is not me
i am not that kind of person that feels this way
and have heart ache and pain
i just want to be where i belong
and i believe that is in the ground
i have bulit a wall
that is not small
and people dont believe
that i will see
the future that i am supposed to see
i believe that we are supposed to be
together and not here with me
because this that you see
is deffenetly not me
i just wish things coud be
the way we used to see
that was the last time that i had seen
the original me
all i see now is heart ache and pain
i want to do what ever it takes
to see what i can be
or what everyone wants me to be
so that i can believe
that i am going home to see
the family with me