What Am I Doing? Poem by Brandon Brown

The feelings I have aren't apparent
The love that I had is transparent
What do I feel?

I own up to the pain inflicted
But I'm constantly contradicted
What should I do?

I want a real relationship to exist
But never close the proper distance
What do I want?

I'm just tired, lonely, and stupid
No more influences
No more thoughts...
So I fought
But never could win
The battle within
Which begs the question
That lacks direction:
What am I doing?