Was It A Dream Or Reality Poem by Aleksandar Sasha Trajkovski

Was it in dream or reality…
confident in feat to reveal the unsolvable,
dream or reality seemingly unresolvable,
of my soul lead through highs steepand dark,
from guides blind,
trough the whole ignorance until
last unconvincing recognizing.
On the shoulders again the luggage same,
this time from stones precious useless,
and this time I do not wonder lead from recognition partly,
also guides silent are guiding me.
I climb slowly on the rocks steep,
and behind me I leave,
warm ponds of blood on the rock cold,
and wish to catch them form the back bloody,
and to throwthem on slopes.
And all around seems to me so real.
The fear from unresponsiveness eternal,
that I won't find you,
returned me again from the intention
to releasemyself from excess,
and the weight was more and more bigger and heavier.
Confusion undurable,
my mind was clouded by excessive anticipation.
I felt that I am at edge of forces,
bloody,
and slowly started to give up at downs,
but completely,
on the light with passion.
The glow intense suddenly faded again,
and like always she appeared,
in a form of a fairy,
and for a second disappear in the unknown,
like expected without mercy this time again,
and mountain humongous I left behind me,
withenigma unresolved.
Was it dream or real…