Trying To Understand Poem by Sandra Feldman

How restlessly
We try to understand,
Life's complicated
Spins and Spans,
That like in films
Accompany, the vital Whims
And Screenplays of our Lives.

Spotlights so dim,
The more we search,
The less we understand
The reasons why?
We're given life
That is to die,
As all around us closes in
And dreams no longer satisfy
With hope,
Our vital auto-trance
The sleeplike altered state
That due to age,
Prevents the apparition
Of a second chance.