True Feelings Poem by Elandra Poindexter

strength that will last for a life time can weaken
after every blow to every part of your soul
sitting cross-legged
my elbows on my knees
face in my hands
tears pouring out so fast
tears pool into the palms of my hands
running down my forearm
standing up looking into my reflection
eyes red like blood
i wipe away my tears
the tears that show pain
anger
frustration
loneliness
solitude
fear...
no words to explain my current state
i dont know what to feel
or how to feel
i guess i cry to feel
or cry to understand
and attempt to understand to feel
or attempt to understand to realize
maybe i dont know why
i have written this but
i guess it was what i truely feel
on the inside
behind this mask
never to show my eyes
never to reveal my true state
my strength has weakened from every blow
to my soul