Touched By The Hands Of A Tabooed Love Poem by Kellyn, A Grau

The warmth of your smile
The touch of your soul
The feel of your heart beat with mine
The nights so captivating
It seems every time you leave I want to die
I still don't understand it
How I can fear you so
and Yet miss your touch so much
And when the wind blows by
And I hear a sad song cry
I feel as if my souls been ripped out
Yet why do i feel guilty
When your the one who left me
But it seems I never got over that fall
Though My hearts progressing
And life seems so depressing
Little moments with you just make it all right
Yet sin develops all around us
Showing that this still cannot be
I've tried to be extremely patichent
Tried to turn the other cheek
Yet I cant help but want to cry
When I look into those eyes
I sense the pain that you are feeling
Remember the same reaction I had
When you would turn to me and whisper
How much you love to hold my hand
Yet when you went home every night
You'd lay with someone else
I can't help but be jealous of her
When your the one my hearts wants
Now that the tables are turned
Your witnessing my pain and sorrow
My jealousy and passion
You can't quite grasp it the same as me
So when i tell you I understand
Please know I truly do
I remember those false hope days
When it felt right at the time
Yet when you left I wanted to cry
Back and forth like a constant tussle
In my stomach I'd feel the stress
And in my eyes you'd see the pain
Have you forgotten about those times
Have you forgotten what happened
How hard it was for me to say good-bye
Yet even when I pushed in distance
I allowed you to return with time
No matter how hard I try to deny
I can't help but confess
I'm still In love with you