To My Parents Poem by Jessica Thomas

I feel like a puppy in a dog pound
Like a person thrown in the lost and found
I don't understand why I feel so disowned
It's hard to think that I'm not alone
The greatest person in which I miss
Your souls out roaming a great abyss
Why have I been given this to handle?
Why do emotions create never-ending battles?
I hope my family gets better in time
Yet the pain in my heart is all mine
I remember times when daddy did try
Pushed him away without asking myself why
What about the mommy who never was there
My thoughts sometimes too painful to bear
I don't understand why I feel this way
I really want to make them pay
They need pain and they need hurt
They need to feel like less than dirt
Being successful means everything to me
I wish that I could make ya'll see
My self esteem can get quite low
You can't care about whom you don't know
All my days I felt so ashamed
All my life it's me I've blamed
I should've paid attention to the lessons I've been taught
And remember times when these feelings weren't caught
Think about problems in which I can relate
Instead of sitting here seething with hate
I don't care why I was never understood
Somehow I knew you guys never would
Now I can't comprehend why I even bother
I wanted mommy and daddy not some mother and father.