Thoughts In Disarray Poem by RIC BASTASA

like threads
entangled
in themselves
like hair
crowded in the
temple
where
you have no
way of
straightening
the confusion
where
you have
no time
putting things
in their
proper places
or thoughts
firm in their
aligned perspectives

you expect
much about
my sanity and
system,

i too have
times
of losing and
being somewhere
else
where you
cannot speak
to me
where i am
furious in
my silence

i do not wish
to hurt you
baby, so please
please
go away

before unkind
words are spoken
please please
go away
before another
heart bleeds
before another
world shatters

let it be
just me
without you


you do not deserve
the cruelties
still thriving
in my heart
like viruses
and worms

now, go away
and do not be hurt
do not even
dare think
about me

i am lost and i am finding
ways
to finally find myself
from the wars
of my thoughts
from the rubble
of my perdition