There Is A Great Deal Of Depression Poem by Poetic Judy Emery

There is a great deal of depression
in a life of pain; Oh, how my body aches,
I can feel every needle pains running down
my body with a burn, but than it has a coldness
to that burn like ice and fire rolling around inside me,
I know no body truly knows what it is I need,
But would it mean anything?
Dark Angel, has overtaken me
Like the wind roaming over the sea,
my soul longs for the day he will lets me go,
all he wants is full control over me,
but that is something I will never give
no matter what pain he gives,
oh, how he cuts deep at my mind
just to see my heart bleed most of the time,
his words are like an old sad love song
that plays all the time,
my mind is filed with thoughts of anger,
while my heart feels its loss,
Oh, my tears I cry is like a flood
that has no end;
I was too young to understand the ways of sin
My life was never right in my mother's eyes
no matter how hard I ever tried;
all she sees could ever see about me
was the dark side of me?
she called me her black seed
oh, that was so mean of her to say those words to me,
I was only two when I started crying out
for those painful words to end.
as I got older I became bolder,
the pains had grown stronger
I would get down on my knees
Asking God to Please make the hurt go away,
but they never did,
I would cry deep in the night
asking why did my own mother
didn't have love for me?
why did my father leave me like this?
He just handed me is old mess of pains and
Then he just walked away
without a word of goodbyes
never cared if I had tears in my eyes,
their ware no words to ease my pains
every day this old pain has given me a life time of rain.

Poetic Judy Emery © 1980
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery