The Storm Of The Inside Poem by Jorge Arturo Valles Anguiano

Inside my head
I can hear a storm of words
the voice that mentions this words
is me,
myself breaking into tears,
myself getting mad,
myself getting jealous.

I'm breaking into tears in the inside,
'Why?
Why does this only happen to me?
Why am I the only one affected by this?
Why does no one notice how am I feeling?
Why are they still fighting?
Why is my dad doing this? '
and the only answer that came to my mind in that momment is
'I don't know',
but now the answer has changed and said
'It is only because this is my destiny,
this happens because I must get stronger,
and I will not cry again,
and if I cry
I will only cry because I have been holding my tears
and I want to let my tears go in my face,
letting know others what I have been facing
with my tears.

I'm mad because of others' actions,
'I don't like his attitude to...,
I don't like what he is doing,
he is making me go mad,
he is always annoying me',
what a childish thought,
now my reasons to get mad are only
because I think about others and not me
'I don't like his way to act with...'
and I must not show this angriness,
I must calm myself.

I'm getting jealous because of what she does,
I only see her hugging him,
holding his hand,
I only see her smiling to him
she only looks and hears me when he is not there,
but when he is there forgets about me,
but now I have learnt that I must not get jealous,
and should be happy,
because she is happy.

And finally,
this storm has reminded me
how stronger I have became,
due to all the situations I have passed
how mature I have became,
due to I have been growing up
how unsensible I have become
due to that sad momments that had run dry my tears.