The Feeling Poem by uder pressure

It's that feeling you need
you crave for it
trying so hard to be understood
but you yourself are lost
under a mess
a mess you had no intention
of starting

A one time thing
turned into two three and four
you promised yourself
you could handle it

Deep down you felt empty
knowing you couldn't possibly
keep this long held secret
you held inside you

Control
that is all you wanted
you thought you had it
unknowingly the ground falling,
falling beneath your feet

It forced you down
This pride on some days
but paind on most.
and you fell

But not to far to be reached
you continued to be picked up
again and again
brushed off

Then you felt it
the long lost feeling
you strived for.

Soon the feeling drifts
out of reach
out of sight

You again find yourself
lost among the useless days
searching and hoping.