The Enemy I Couldn'T Defeat Poem by John Vogel

despair and helplessness in my mind overtaken
feeling forsaken lookin down at my child shaking
my heart breaking, aching to take some of her pain
feeling ashamed, nothing I can do, no words to say
to ease the suffering or take her anquish away
the anger and rage balanced only by fear and dismay
'It's just not fair', I say. but no-one hears my cry
alone, just her and I, waiting for my child to die

Reminiscing in my mind, the day she came into my life
filled with pride, as I looked in her eyes and cried
at this ray of sunshine, surprised at the love I felt
above all else, that day I made a promise to myself
promised till the day I die, I'd be her shining knight
protect her from all enemies, but now the enemy's inside
and I can't fight it, it's not right I can't do anything
to ease her pain, no way to beat this silent enemy

The enemy within eating away at my poor innocent baby
I sit helplessly by, watching her die, hoping and praying
that soon the end will come, the end of her great pain
suffering will cease when death comes and takes her away,
and then I see that day has come, as she stops breathing
grieving for my child, head on her silent chest weeping
no words could express the bitter emptiness within me, deep
'Please forgive daddy for the enemy I just couldn't defeat.'