Suspicion Poem by Akiva Roberts

Sitting
Quietly and
Alone
In a
House
Of five
Trying
Not to
Give
In to
Temptation
Pulling me
Harassing
Me to
Do
What I
Know
I shouldn’t
Pushing
Me to
Do
What I
Don’t
Really want
Desirability
Allure attraction
Interest
Don’t seem
To
Really describe
This
Burning need
To
Do this
Thing
Shameful to
Think
That I
Am
Thinking of
This
Thing that
Could
Drive us
Apart
This
Thing that
Could
Ruin what
We
Share
This doubt
And
Remorse and
Insecurity
Are foreign
To
The way
I
Think to
The
Way I
Work
These feelings
Are
So easy
To
Give in
To
Heed to
Follow
To give
In
I know
That
These thoughts
These
Dark desires
Are
A product
Of
My
Pain my
Disappointment
I need
To
Fight
This urge
This
Craving itch
This
Longing yearning
That
Goads me
To do
This
Thing that
Could
Ruin me
Us
I will
Fight
This unholy
Monster
That
Continues to
Rear
It’s ugly
Head
I will
Battle
This urge
That
Conflicts with
All
That I
Believe
That I
Truly feel
Although
Deep down
There
Is still
That
Small nagging
Misgiving.