Suicidal Poem by Anonymous Daughter

Am I suicidal cuz I wanna end the pain
or cuz I feel like these feelings I cannot erase
Am I suicidal cuz the knife lingers in my hand
or because I allow it to slip through my fingers like sand
Am I suicidal cuz I love endlessly
or because I am vulnerable mercilessly
Do I cringe at the thought of death
or do I conform to the crazy life and pray to God not to get caught
Do I allow myself to fall in love
Or do I continue to sabotage
Do I want to be somebody in this dumb life
or should I just end it all with the same knife
Am I crazy cuz I think like this
or am I just crazy cuz these thoughts never cese
This poem will have no ending
because my new life is just beginning